I've been wanting to write for a couple days but have been feeling a little negative about life and that takes away my enthusiasm for writing. I don't like to admit I have times like this and try to focus on positive things but the truth is I battle dark thoughts. A couple weeks ago I sat in Sunday school and began feeling like I live such a selfish life. The lesson was on using our talents and the ladies were discussing being ready to give when we see a need and other ways of reaching out. When I look at my life, it seems like it's all about me. Because I don't have children I'm not forced to be selfless like moms are. All I do is work and what good does that do anyone? Even this blog is all about me. Everywhere I look all I see is ugly selfishness. There probably is some truth in those thoughts but the devil quickly began using it to discourage me. When I realized those feelings were black and hopeless, I decided to believe they were not from God. Still, I'm not sure where to put all that because I do think I have a need in that area.
I've been inspired lately to be stronger emotionally and mentally. Not to be so easily shaken when faced with disappointment. To keep going, keep smiling, and trust that the trials I go through are meant to make me a better person.
I'm beginning to understand just a little that I can choose to think discouraging thoughts or believe they're not true and refuse to listen when they start bombarding me. Often the dark thoughts feel like the truth and it's so hard to think otherwise. This quote really spoke to me.
I didn't want to write a negative post, but maybe saying some of these things will help me since I resist the idea of admitting I am this way.
Love ya, Wendy💗
ReplyDeleteAppreciated your honest post! One day this week I was having an exceptionally difficult day. Things were just not going as planned and I felt very defeated. I decided it was time for some chocolate. A dove milk chocolate to be exact. Usually the sayings inside dont really pertain to me, but this time I read, "you got this!" Just those 3 words gave me courage for the remainder of my day :) I stuck it in my kitchen in a spot where I can read it occasionally! Wishing you a great day! Amy
ReplyDeleteI have days like this too, Wendy... guess the devil gets us any way he can! Sometimes I feel like the selfish mom who doesn’t take much time for others but just takes care of her own family... I guess just to be content where God put us in life but like one of my friends said, not to be content with never changing. Sometimes when I’ve felt like it’s time to reach out to others, then along comes something I can do that works for me and isn’t overwhelming. Wishing you courage today! -Celeste
ReplyDeleteMiss you n love ya❤️ Milly
ReplyDeleteLove this post! I don’t know of anyone who doesn’t have days/times like this! People ask me sometimes how I stay so positive and I think to myself, “If you only knew what it was like in my head sometimes!?” 🤪 I love how you decided that the darkness was not from God. He always give us uplifting direction! And don’t ever think that your work is not for others!!! To me, your job is ALL about being there for others!! The dedication of you and the others in your field is what makes this world work! You have a major talent to even be able to do such a high pressure job! Keep up the good work and keep writing!! 😚
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