April 25, 2019

My friend Lesma

I still can hardly believe she's gone. The last time I saw her she brought me food and gave me a hug. I wish I had known it was the last time. I wish I had known she had cancer.

I got to know Lesma at work. She was the housekeeper in CCU when I worked there as a unit secretary. So many memories have come back since I heard she died in her sleep a month ago. Lesma had her faults, but she was a hard working, simple woman who became my friend. When I first got to know her she was in her 70's, working two jobs and sending money to her grown children back in Jamaica. She was no longer spry but kept plugging along, pushing her housekeeping cart, emptying trash, and cleaning rooms. When she got tired or had a slow time, she'd come sit at the secretary's desk and "take a five." Many times I and other people had a hard time understanding her with her thick Jamaican accent. "Yeah mon!" was usually her way of agreeing or saying yes. She'd complain about the cafeteria food, saying that's why her belly hurt. I suppose it was actually her cancer. Sometimes she'd have me make phone calls for her or explain notices she got in the mail. Several times she wanted me to buy things online for her... a phone case, shoes, something for her son in Jamaica. Once I talked to her son because she handed me the phone and told me to tell him about something she got in the mail regarding her 401k. That was a little awkward! I introduced her to Google street view and she showed me where she lived (a row house in downtown Reading), and I showed her my house. Then she wanted to "see Jamaica." She was intrigued with that. Many times she wanted to share food with me. One time there was a meal given for the housekeeping department and she brought me a plate piled high with different kinds of pasta they had. In 2017 she became a United States citizen and the CCU staff threw her a party. We were so happy and proud for her! This picture, taken that day, is on her WhatsApp profile.


After looking at hair styles online at work for weeks before, she got her hair done especially for her citizenship ceremony. One of the nurses from work went to the courthouse to witness the ceremony. Lesma retired from the hospital towards the end of last year but came back a couple times to see everyone.

Today a memorial service was held in the hospital chapel in honor of Lesma. Quite a few people attended and shared memories and some tears. I'm glad I had the chance to get to know this Jamaican mama. I wish I could spend one more day with her.

April 24, 2019

garden ramblings



Ahhh spring! I think I forget how beautiful it is because every year I marvel at how the earth bursts forth with new life. In my opinion, this spring has been one of the nicest we've had for awhile. Some years it's just dreary, rainy, and cold until May, which is what Darren from work calls "sprinter". We've had enough sunshine and rain to transform the landscape from what it was a few weeks ago. My hostas, astilbe, ferns, and other perennials have pushed through the soil and dead leaves that covered them through the winter. The two woodland garden beds are full of daffodils and now that I've tackled most of the weeds, are looking wonderful. The lilac bush I planted 2 or 3 years ago is finally getting more growth and has 3 dark purple flowers almost ready to bloom. In a few days, those flowers are definitely coming in the house so I can enjoy their scent. Lilacs are unquestionably my favorite spring flower; I think because it brings back memories of my childhood home where there was a big lilac bush.


When I worked at the greenhouse I'd get antsy to plant flowers and probably would've had some annuals out by now. I've learned to hold back at least until May because there's still a likelihood of frost, plus the plants will grow better in the warm greenhouse. I'm already looking ahead at my work schedule and planning when I can take a day and go "greenhousing," a spring ritual that's one of the best days of the year for me! Today I got out the planters I want to use and repainted one of them. Since I was off and it was a gorgeous day, I spent the afternoon outside working in the woodland gardens. There were some dead bushes that needed to be removed and I did some rearranging of plants. Every year I move things around but hope I'll finally get it the way I want it yet! These garden beds are something I made out of what was once a fern/weed patch. It's what I see when I look out my kitchen window, so I planted perennials, bushes, and a few trees to create a more pleasing view from the kitchen and back of the house. Since it's at the edge of the woods, I've had to find plants that like shade, wet soil, and are deer resistant. I've had some success and quite a few failures, but every year it becomes more established and closer to what I want to make it.


This kind of weather never seems to last long enough for all I want to accomplish. There's probably at least 30 bushes that need fertilizing and more winter cleanup yet. We decided to get someone to do our mulching this year, since we both have other things to keep up with.

Cliff has been steadily working at painting the kitchen while I've worked the last 3 evenings. I am so happy with the color I chose! It's fresh-looking and blends well with my not-so-pretty cabinets and countertop. In fact, I like it so much I'm having second thoughts about doing shiplap on one wall. The other walls are cut up with cabinets and doorways so it doesn't seem like there's enough of the paint showing. My two signs are on the way and I think they will be perfect!





Take the time to go outside and enjoy spring while it's here. Cleaning and housekeeping can wait for a rainy day!😉


April 18, 2019

what's happening

What I'm reading
When we were in Ohio last weekend we browsed antique shops in the quaint town of Millersburg. I was delighted to acquire four excellent condition 1918 edition books by O. Henry with the following titles: Rolling Stones, Cabbages and Kings, Heart of the West, Whirligigs. I didn't know such books existed and immediately knew I wanted them. In my opinion, O. Henry is the master of short stories with surprise endings. Some of my favorites are The Ransom of Red Chief, After Twenty Years, and The Gift of the Magi. 

After hearing so many Peter Pan references from a coworker because of my name, I listened to the book while on our trip. The Wizard of Oz is another one I just finished because the people I work with invariably made some comment about Dorothy, slippers, or the yellow brick road when I told them I was going to Kansas on my vacation. Now I finally know what they're talking about! I think I read abridged versions as a child but didn't really remember the story.


Although I'm usually skeptical of current popular books, I decided to see what the hoopla about Girl, Wash Your Face was all about. I'm not very far into the book yet but am enjoying it.

What I'm smelling
Hyacinths... the scent of spring! Three freshly picked beauties smelled up my whole kitchen until paint fumes drowned them out. But I'm happy for the fumes because it means progress!



What I'm eating 
Camille wanted me to bring some freshly ground honey roasted peanut butter from Echo Hill out to Kansas. I was introduced to bananas with peanut butter and there's no turning back! Thankfully it's basically a healthy food, right? I think the protein and potassium outweigh the higher calorie count. If you're going to eat bananas with peanut butter, please try the freshly ground honey roasted...it's amazing!

What I'm wearing 
Since I'm on my feet and walking so much at work, I've been searching for the most comfortable shoes. My wide, bunioned feet are not happy when made to wear something uncomfortable. After trying and returning Alegria nursing clogs and other supposed-to-be-the-best shoes, the most comfortable ones I've found are Skechers, especially these. I love that they're slip-on... so quick and easy to slide on those mornings when I'm running late!

What's going on at work
Our main anteroom tech had her 3rd child and is going from full time to per diem. Although we all work a rotation, those who show more ability for certain areas are more often scheduled to work there. I've been enjoying the pace and challenge of the anteroom, as well as the hours (7 am - 3:30 pm). Our next schedule was just posted, and I'm on for anteroom over 75% of the time. I'm happy about that!

What I need to do now - go to bed! 5:15 am will be here much too soon!

April 12, 2019

Opinions, please!

I'm shopping for some new decor for when my kitchen makeover is complete. Update: wallpaper torn off; next step, primer. I haven't bought paint yet, but am pretty settled on "honeydew" from Sherwin- Williams.


We got inspired to put white shiplap on one wall when we saw it in my sister's house. Can't wait to see the final result! I'm looking for a sign to put on the shiplap wall. I found this lovely one with a favorite quote which I already purchased for on top of the cabinets.


This sign sparks joy for me! I'm really impressed with this seller's products, and contacted her to see if she could make a custom sign, which she agreed to. Now to decide the size and what I want the sign to say! There's another Laura Ingalls Wilder quote I really like, but it's kind of the same thought as the sign I already got. Here it is.


I love this quote because I've found it to be so true. Here's another one I'm looking at.


I've always loved this simple message. Laura Ingalls Wilder must be a kindred spirit! Another sign I think would be neat is one like this.


I have a hard time making up my mind when there's more than one thing I like! If my readers have an opinion, will you please let me know in the comments or by messaging me? Vote with these numbers. 

#1: The true way to live...   
#2: Home is the nicest word there is 
#3: sweet tea

Looking forward to hearing from you! 😊

Kansas vacation

We just spent a delightful five days in Kansas with my little sister and her husband of six months. It was so neat getting to see her house for the first time, eat her delicious meals, and have sister time! Although I'm lucky enough to live at the same place as my parents and two brothers, I miss my sisters! I'm so glad we love each other and get along. Not everyone can say that!


Driving is our preferred way of traveling. It's so much more relaxing when you don't have to be at the airport at a certain time, pack everything just right, wait in long lines, and be squished into an airplane seat. On our way to Kansas we left around midnight and drove for eighteen hours. Then we were able to have a relaxing evening at a motel and get rested before driving six hours the next day. Cliff had been working nights the week we left, so he was used to staying awake, which worked out great.

While we were there, Kansas showed us some of its most beautiful and most uncomfortable weather. Thankfully it was sunny, calm, and warm for the most part. We experienced a 60° change in temperature one day though, with tremendous wind causing clouds of dust. The following morning there was a slight dusting of snow. Overall, springtime was at least two weeks farther along than at home. I had fun working in Camille's yard, making a flowerbed and planting bushes. The men pitched in and tilled up the flowerbed and tore out overgrown bushes. Of interest to me was the fact that I never saw one rock while working in the soil. That's so drastically different from home, where everywhere I dig, there's lots of rocks! The day was topped off with an outdoor supper of hot dogs and s'mores. It was a calm perfect evening to spend around the fire with Derek's family. His family also treated us to a grilled pizza meal at their house the first evening we were there. All different kinds of yummy pizzas, including dill pickle and dessert pizzas, were served.

My birthday was spent with the men going to an air museum while Camille and I got pedicures and shopped. 😊 Lunch was at a great bbq restaurant, and I indulged myself with a piece of fabulous lemon meringue pie later. The next day Cliff and I and Camille went to Montezuma. We had lunch with one of my oldest friends while Camille met one of her friends. Old friends truly are "gold." No matter how much time goes by without any contact, when you meet them again, there's always that connection.


In the afternoon we spent time with my Aunt Anna and her family. Derek joined us there for a tasty supper. We all enjoyed being with them and having some good laughs!

Goodbyes are no fun, especially if you don't know when you'll see each other again. It tugged on my heart to leave her out there on the plains of western Kansas. But she has a good husband, a lovely home, and people to look after her there. She will make it.

We're driving through the night again and will keep going until sometime tomorrow when we'll stop in Ohio to be with my other sister and her family. It's been a wonderful vacation!

April 5, 2019

reflections on my work family

I haven't written about work for awhile, and thought I could tell some stories about the colorful people who have become my work family. It's definitely broadened my horizons to get outside of the Mennonite culture and see how other people live their lives. All names will be changed to protect privacy, and I'm afraid this will be a lengthy post. Consider yourself warned!

Pharmacists are paid salary, but most work 8.5 hour days like we techs. However, we have four pharmacists who work seven 12 hour days on, then seven days off. Two of them, whom I'll call Josh and Isaiah, rotate working night shift, so I'm not with them as much but our shifts do overlap some. The other two, Greg and Reuben, rotate working approximately 10 am to 10 pm, called evening shift. So one week we have Reuben/Josh, and the next is Greg/Isaiah. Reuben is a gentle yet strict Nigerian man who loves to tease and laugh, although that definitely wasn't the first impression I got. He can be rather demanding and questioning with the techs and at first seemed kind of scary. He has also been designated pharmacy "pot stirrer" for several years. To digress, every year during pharmacy week we have special activities. One of them is voting on superlatives - assigning awards to different categories like "most helpful", "cool as a cucumber", "fashionista", "most improved", and more. Last year pharmacy week was soon after I joined the team and didn't know everyone as well. Even before I found out Reuben carried that title for several years, I knew he was the one I would select for pot stirrer! He's not loud, but insistent and likes to challenge people, including the manager and pharmacy director. Then later he will talk and laugh about how he got them riled up. He has several trademark phrases that come up during discussions. When someone wants him to do something a little questionable or shady, he refuses to budge and says, "They are wanting me to bend the rules, but I am not a liar. I can't even tell a white lie, because I am a black man!" Then he will laugh his silent, wheezy chuckle. Another comment when he's offered something sweet is "I'm sweet enough." He is a man of habit, eating and warming his coffee at nearly the same time every day. Every afternoon he goes outside to move his car. When the parking lot empties out later in the day he tries to park as close to the steps as possible, because "I am a black man and if someone sees me out in the field (parked way out by the cornfield) at night, they will call security!" I've come to look forward to working with Reuben, especially in the evenings or on weekends when there aren't as many people around and he "cuts loose."


Greg, an older man married to a male partner, is the party type, socializing and talking a lot. He loves eating, cooking, and discussing food. When he works on the weekend, food is usually ordered or brought in. Josh is a tall, silent man who is hard to get to know. What I've heard from other employees is his wife walked out years ago and left him with 3 or 4 young kids. He's raised them on his own, working nights. I was a little intimidated by him at first, but have come to appreciate his quiet good sense. The other night shift pharmacist, Isaiah, is another African (Ghanaian?) man who seemingly has never climatized to our non-tropical weather. I have never seen him without a beanie, and he's known to crank up the heat at night.

Now for a description of Julie. It will be hard to convey her personality in words. I have never met or known anyone quite like her! She only works 3 evenings a week from 5:00 - 9:30, but leaves an unforgettable impression. At 5:00, here she comes, bouncing in with a hearty "hELLLo! hELLLo! hELLLo!" Everyone knows there are certain things Julie will always do (it's generally assumed she has OCD). She always does the TPN's (total parenteral nutrition, providing nutrition through IV) if there are any. She checks all the printers and adds paper. She rolls a chair that usually is set up kind of in the middle of nowhere for anyone working on a mobile computer, across the pharmacy to another desk. She closes drawers that are left partly open. During her shift, discarded labels and papers pile up beside her. There's probably other things I'm not thinking of that are part of her routine. She's a loud, exuberant woman who I'd compare to Tigger. The part that blows everyone away is that she's married to our medication safety pharmacist, who is serious, sober, stern, and COMPLETELY her opposite! Yes, I know opposites attract, but they are an exceptional contrast!



It's time to give some space to a technician. Our lead tech, Carmen, keeps everyone in line, including pharmacists! I'm not sure how long she's worked there, but she can answer almost any question, even those that only pertain to a pharmacist's role. She's not afraid to yell at someone who she thinks is out of line, and is the glue that holds it together.

Darren is probably the coworker I talk about most often. When he's around, he demands your attention. Talking is one of his major talents, and favorite subjects are football, winning the lottery (more on that later), how his daughter is doing in school, "going to the chapel", which is the bathroom near the hospital chapel, and losing weight for his high school reunion in June. Currently he's doing the low carb diet and has lost at least 25 pounds, but we've been hearing about this before he even started dieting. He'd tell people he had a one-pack and needed to get a six-pack. Darren is often the pharmacist you work with when you're in the clean room. Everyone who trains in the clean room is "sworn in" by Darren. You put your right hand on a pack of alcohol wipes, raise your left, and repeat after him a creed about maintaining sterility and so on, ending with "what happens in the clean room stays in the clean room." 😂 Once you're back there, he'll ask all kinds of questions about your personal life. Several times he's asked me if my marriage was arranged and wanted to know all the details about how we got together.🙄 Yesterday one of the questions he asked me was "If, God forbid, your husband would die, would you get remarried?" He's not afraid to get in your space and take over so you have to be straightforward and tell him to back off if he gets to be too much. It can be rather distracting when you're trying to concentrate and he's going on about something. Several times he's told me what he'd do if he won the powerball lottery. He's got it all figured out - where he would give donations, what kind of vacation home he wants, and says he'll pay off the debts of everyone in the pharmacy - mortgages, student loans, etc. Then he asks me what I'd do if I had 200 million dollars. I haven't told him I don't believe in playing the lottery because I'm sure he'd have to know all the reasons why and I'm not prepared for that kind of interrogation, so I just play along with him. Yesterday he asked if I won the lottery, would I go to college? If I could study anything I wanted, what would it be? Never a dull moment with him! He's the "drama king" of the pharmacy, getting excited and blowing things out of proportion and sometimes his intensity can put everyone on edge. However, I think we all like Darren because he gives us things to laugh at.



That's only seven of my coworkers! There's at least twenty more I could say something about, but the ones I've described are probably the most outstanding. We have a fairly diverse team that includes Asians, African-Americans, Latinos, gay, straight, old, young, and one Mennonite girl! It keeps work interesting and colorful!

April 1, 2019

a trip down memory lane

Tonight Fleetwood hosted a song service for all the Pennsylvania congregations. It's been years since I've attended one of them! When I was growing up and in the youth, they were held every 5th Sunday and all the congregations took turns hosting them. Being there tonight brought back youth memories and a sense of disbelief that the people I used to watch as a young girl now have youth children of their own! I could pick out who some of the youth were because I knew their parents. Those of us who were youth together not so many years ago now have some gray hairs and carry extra pounds. Sometimes I forget what it was like to be 16 or 17 (half my lifetime ago! 😳) but watching all those young people helped revive some of those feelings. I remember a sense of vibrancy and excitement about life and the future, being carefree with no real responsibility, having fun with friends and meeting new people, so many enjoyable times singing, but also feelings of inferiority and self-consciousness. There was always someone prettier, more popular, a better singer or ball player... and that really was a big thing! How small those struggles look now! Sometimes I miss the feeling of life being an unknown road in front of me, excited about possibilities and dreams. At this point, my life seems pretty predictable and I've become more cynical of dreams and expectations. Some of my dreams did come true though! I remember saying when I was quite young that I wanted to wear glasses (✅), be a teacher (✅), and be fat (well, I'm maybe not fat, but certainly not skinny either so ✅!🤭) I also remember wanting to write a book, but that one hasn't really come true unless you count this blog! Sometimes I feel like a totally different person than I was as a young girl and teenager.



Even though my life didn't exactly turn out how I dreamed it would, I'm thankful for the good things God has given me. 🎶"If I had ten thousand lives with which to praise Him... I could never praise Him half enough."🎶