work challenges

After working the 3:30 pm to 12:00 am shift five days in a row, I'm still wide awake at midnight. I've been slightly frustrated lately with working full time. It seems I'm constantly trying to get things done at home but never quite reach a point where things are caught up. I never have time for anything extra, like sewing or having company. A good part of my time at work is spent in a small enclosed area making IV's. Lately it's been so hot and uncomfortable in there and I'm tired of sweating inside all the sterile garb. I sometimes miss going to a job where I can dress up and wear nice things. Schools are starting and the beginning of a new term always brings back memories and part of me longs to be there again. I'd like to wish away those feelings because it doesn't seem like the way is open for me to teach. That's probably enough sharing of the ugly, discontented thoughts I've been having.

Last night I made an IV drug I've never done before -- antivenom for a patient who got bit by a copperhead. I wasn't at work when the patient came in (sometime during the night) and this was a follow-up dose of the drug. It's amazing how often the unusual, crazy stuff happens on the evening and night shifts. I also had to make TPA (massive dose of a clot-busting drug for patients who are having a stroke) at least twice while working evenings last week. It is of utmost importance to quickly get TPA to the patient who is having a stroke because "time is brain". Every minute counts when blood flow to the brain is being blocked. In those kinds of emergencies, I don't stop to think about how someone's life might depend on the drug I'm making and how quickly we can get it to them. If I did, I'd probably stab myself with a needle or make some kind of mistake while compounding the drug. Staying calm is the best thing to do.

Last week we were so short of technicians a couple days that a pharmacist had to step in and do the work we techs usually do. I found it amusing that the pharmacist who was covering had a mini meltdown after a couple days of doing the hands-on work because it was too much to handle. 😄 Especially now, while our IV room is under construction and one person is responsible for making all the IV's in a 2 foot area, it does get to be too much sometimes. It takes mental and physical strength to keep your cool. 

I'm trying to have a relaxing weekend to prepare for next week's 5:00 am schedule. That is actually my favorite shift, but after working evenings for a week, I feel a little out of sync. Recently I had my yearly performance eval and felt encouraged by what my manager said about me. Knowing I'm a valuable team member helps me put up with some of the challenges and give it my best.