adjustments and benefits

Starting a new job is no fun. I fully expected it, but still, I'm struggling. When I started in the pharmacy at St. Joe's, it was rough because of the steep learning curve. Since they don't have sufficient staff, their new hire training leaves much to be desired. Basically they push you out on your own and you learn by trial and error. I remember being terrified and overwhelmed, near tears sometimes. Seeing someone in tears there was actually not too unusual. I think I've written enough about the hectic pace there, but suffice it to say that time rarely moved slowly and there was always multiple things that needed to be done. Generally, the busier it is, the better I thrive. I've found that I do best at a job that mentally challenges me and physical ACTION is involved. 

In my four days at LVHN, my biggest struggle has been BOREDOM. It's the exact opposite of everything I experienced when starting at St. Joe's. I'm learning new things, but it's mostly different approaches and ways of doing things I'm familiar with. The biggest challenge I've faced is finding my way around. I don't want to be an obnoxious know-it-all, and try to refrain from saying things like, "At St. Joe's we did it this way." Being the new kid on the block firmly reminds me I'm not anyone special. The training at LVHN is much more structured and looks like it will be taken at a slower pace. After four days in one area, I'm quite ready to be on my own or move on to the next thing. From what I've seen, their "busy" is mild compared to a truly busy day at St. Joe's, mostly because they have so many more people. On the plus side, it does seem to be a better managed department. 

I'm telling myself to give it time and things will get better once training is over. I know that's common sense, but there's another voice telling me, "Life's too short to spend ten hours a day at a job that's a drag." I'm trying to let common sense overrule that voice. Knowing I would be gladly welcomed back to St. Joe's makes me feel like I have a back door if I want to bow out. The lead tech there texted me last week and asked if I was ready to come back yet! There's pros and cons to both places, but LVHN has enough pros to keep me there until I've given it a fair try. 

Getting home in time for a walk before dark has helped balance out the hardships. Fresh air and the proven benefits of walking outside (and yes, competition!) have kept me motivated even when a nap or another relaxing activity sounds delicious. I'm hesitant to say I'm making progress in developing a good habit, but can see it happening much easier with a routine schedule, so that's encouraging!