January 23, 2019

Counting my blessings

Lately it seems it's been too easy for me to dwell on the negative parts of my life. By nature I tend to be pessimistic and melancholic, which I don't like. Thinking on the positive parts of my life and what I have to be thankful for is a good way for me to get my mind off the things that aren't so pleasant. I've found that writing and sharing my thoughts on this blog has been surprisingly therapeutic. So I decided it's time to straighten my crown and start counting my blessings!


A few things I'm thankful for
  • A reliable vehicle that gets me to work 
  • A happy childhood and good memories of family times
  • A job I enjoy that keeps me busy
  • A heated garage
  • A mom who cuts out dresses for me and helps me with my patterns and sewing
  • God, the church, and friends who care
  • That I was born in a Christian home 
  • My own home - my haven

A few things that make me happy
  • Seeing the sunrise just as I pull into the parking lot to start my day at work 
  • The giddy feeling the night before when I don't have to work the next day
  • Being with my nieces and nephew - children are so innocent and funny!
  • Listening to a book while putting a puzzle together 

Sometimes I feel guilty and selfish for doing things I enjoy to make me happy. I'm not exactly sure how God looks at it, but I've found that looking for joy in small, everyday things and doing little things I delight in does help me to feel better when I'm down. There's so many more big blessings I could add to my thankful list, but the little things are what impress me! I want to focus on the good instead of the bad.

January 15, 2019

once a teacher...

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It's been almost three years since I taught school, and some days I miss it. Especially on Sundays when I'm at church and see the children and my former students, I find myself remembering. Although I have regrets and wish I could do some things over, I really loved teaching. I miss being involved with other teachers, children, and the school board. I miss having a classroom to decorate and dreaming up ideas for educational projects. I remember science fair, book study, social studies power points, map study, and caravans. I miss the thrill of explaining a lesson. I miss making lesson plans. I miss that amazing feeling of seeing a child progress and learn new skills and easily do math problems that were once hard for them. I miss seeing wonder and interest in their faces when presenting a fascinating history or science lesson. I miss introducing them to good books during story time. I miss all the breaks and summer vacation. But there's just about that many things I don't miss, too! When I compare my job now with teaching it's so much easier in some ways. At the end of the day I can go home, forget about work, and be free from responsibility. Also, I have better benefits and pay (not that I'm making so much money - Google "pharmacy technician salary" if you're curious). The medical world intrigues me and I genuinely enjoy my job.

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As anyone who has been a teacher can probably tell you, teachers face criticism. I've learned I don't handle that very well. Another area I wish I was different in is being able to give correction without showing frustration. Being a teacher can be mentally and emotionally draining and I don't know if I'm really cut out for it. Part of me can't accept that my teaching days are over, though. Maybe I'll just always have this nostalgic feeling. I certainly will never regret the years I spent as a teacher!

It's amazing how food can conjure up all sorts of memories #nostalgia #AlidaRyder

January 14, 2019

the scoop on salsa


Yesterday I put a question on my WhatsApp status regarding what kind of salsa is good to buy for those of us who don't make homemade. I got quite a few answers and some told me they'd like to know too, so here's a report.

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1. Chi Chi's
2. On the Border
3. Leal's (apparently not available in PA, but looks like it can be bought online)
4. Newman's Own medium, put in chopper to get rid of chunks
5. Penny's Salsa
6. fresh salsa from refrigerator/produce section
7. Pace - recommended by 3 people! One person blends it a bit and adds cilantro. Another person blends it and adds vinegar, salt, and garlic salt.
8. Two people sent me recipes using canned tomatoes

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Yum! Some of the suggestions I've already tried and I'm looking forward to sampling new ones. Since I mostly shop at Sam's Club I've just been buying whatever they have - On the Border, Member's Mark, etc. Of course, it usually comes in a bigger container so I've had a problem with it going bad before the jar is empty. I kind of go through spurts where I eat a lot of it for awhile, then it sits in the fridge for a long time. Cliff rarely eats salsa (popcorn for him!) so I guess I need to start buying smaller jars. Thanks for sharing your favorites!

January 9, 2019

find your cozy nook of comfort

One of the things that gives me the greatest joy is coming home from work, lighting a good smelling candle, and working on a puzzle beside a warm wood fire. I feel like I don't have words to describe the pleasure I get from this simple activity! It's so relaxing and there's truly no place I'd rather be on a winter night than at home, by the fire, working on a puzzle. The calendar I have on the wall close by says "find your cozy nook of comfort" which is exactly what this is for me. 

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my current puzzle - the one I got for Christmas
While I was working in the clean room today, I asked the pharmacist who was with me if she goes home and cooks every evening. She said most nights she does, it's how she relaxes! I. cannot. imagine. Usually the last thing I want to do when I get home from work is cooking a meal and it certainly is not the way I relax! I don't mind cooking if I'm at home all day, but I just don't have the energy after a day at work. This pharmacist has about an hour drive home so I asked what time they eat, and she said around 8:00 pm. By that time, I'm thinking about going to bed, not cleaning up after a meal! Her husband (also a pharmacist) likes to cook too, and they enjoy making elaborate meals together on the weekends.

I discovered Wal-Mart has some pretty good salads that come with dressing and toppings, all ready to mix and eat. We both like them, and for $2.98, it's cheaper and healthier than fast food! Although I am not a Wal-Mart fan and avoid going there if at all possible, I've been using their grocery pickup and am super impressed. For someone like me who doesn't enjoy shopping and would rather click and shop, it's fantastic! On my way home from work I can stop by, someone brings out my groceries and loads them up, and I'm on my way in a few minutes. I really hate to be promoting Wal-Mart, but I haven't found any other grocery store that has such great pickup service. If someone knows of a better place, please let me know! I do use Sam's Club pickup a lot too, but you have to go in the store to get your order (yes, I know this sounds lazy. I just think it's a waste of time going in stores!)

Ready Pac Bistro Cranberry Walnut Salad, 4.5 ozMarketside Cobb Salad with Turkey & BaconMarketside Santa Fe Style Salad with ChickenMarketside Chicken Caesar Salad Bowl 6.25 oz

Now it's time to work on my puzzle! 😄

January 7, 2019

anecdotes from pharmacy life

It may be awhile until I write Part 3 of my "day in the life of a pharmacy tech" posts. I'm not officially trained in the anteroom for day shift, although I have covered other tech's breaks and lunches and been trained on weekends and second shift. Next week I start my day shift training and then I'll be in the anteroom for several weeks. In the meantime, I'll tell some other experiences of things that happen at work.

There's usually no one working in the clean room after 5:00 pm, so the second shift anteroom tech is the one who has to make any stat IV medications that get ordered. We have a small "stat" hood in the anteroom and do a shortened version of the garbing and scrubbing when we make things in there. Medications made in the stat hood are only good for 24 hours because it's not as sterile of an environment. I had one night of second shift anteroom training before I was on my own. 😒 Once you are familiar with how drips are made and have been trained in the clean room, working in the anteroom is not that difficult, though. The night I was training, I asked the tech I was working with what would happen if I ever had to do a stat open heart, and she said "there will be a pharmacist with you, so it will be fine." Usually when there's heart surgeries, we get everything together and prepare all the drips the day before. Sometimes a patient comes in who needs surgery immediately, or for some other reason the heart team gets called in to do a stat surgery, so we have to be ready for that. I never got a chance to prepare the heart supplies when I was working in the clean room, so I didn't even know what kinds of drips were needed. Soon after I started working second shift in the anteroom, one evening there was a code called in CCU. In the meantime, I went back to the clean room to make my radials (a cocktail of drugs we make every evening to have on hand for the cath lab) and while I was back there one of the pharmacists poked her head in and said "they're taking the patient who coded back to surgery." At the time I didn't know the story, but it was a patient who had open heart surgery about a week prior. Apparently there was a slow bleed that they weren't aware of until he coded that night. On second shift, we have a much smaller staff and that night there was only 3 pharmacists and 2 techs. One of the pharmacists was working in the ER, another was newer than me and hadn't been trained in the clean room yet, and the third was a per diem pharmacist who only works about 3 evenings a week. The per diem pharmacist had to figure out how to enter all the heart orders, and I didn't have a clue what I was supposed to do! I couldn't believe this was happening. Since I didn't know what kinds of drips to make, I waited until the orders were entered and I had labels telling me what they were. There's about 5 different ones and some of the IV bags look exactly the same, so unless a pharmacist watches you, they have to take your word that you put the correct drug and right amount in the bag. Because of who was working that night, no one was with me in the clean room, so I made those drips totally on my own!! It would've been so easy to make a mistake, but I tried to be extremely careful and can honestly say I believe they were made correctly. It took awhile to get everything figured out, but we did it! And the story has a good ending - THE PATIENT LIVED!!

Sometimes we have people come in who are overdoses or have a very grim outlook. It appears like some families want everything possible done for the patient even though the chances of survival are slim. There's times when we are making multiple doses of strong IV medications around the clock for a week, and you know most likely that patient is being kept alive by chemicals. Finally the meds are discontinued and a little while later you might see a litter being wheeled into the morgue, which is a short way down the hall from the pharmacy.

We had someone come in who tried to commit suicide by drinking antifreeze. Another person unintentionally drank formaldehyde. Apparently the patient had a cold, and someone gave it to him, saying it was something to help his cold. Needless to say, he soon began feeling much worse. One night a lady was brought in by EMS and her husband said she had been unresponsive for a day. The husband came in with another lady, who was his girlfriend. To not do anything for a day when someone is unresponsive seems irresponsible at the least and possibly criminal. We hear about these things but never really know the outcome as far as what happens to the people who are potentially responsible.

Working in a hospital opens your eyes to the fact that things can happen so quickly and just like that people's lives are changed. It's made me learn to appreciate what I have now, and not take good health for granted.

In the blink of an eye everything can change. So forgive often and love with all your heart. You may not have that chance again.We are all just a car crash, a diagnosis, an unexpected phone call, a newfound love, or a broken heart away from becoming a completely different person. How beautifully fragile are we that so many things can take but a moment to alter who we are for forever. Life.

January 5, 2019

confessions of a melancholic

I'm so excited that it's Friday night and I have the weekend off! Truly, not having to set an alarm is one of the best feelings. Since I know I don't have to get up in the morning I'm wide awake!

As I mentioned before, I am genuinely surprised at how many people have told me they enjoy this blog. Thank you for the kind comments. It makes me feel a little guilty, though. I don't want to portray myself as something that I'm not, so I want to make it clear that my life is FAR from ideal or perfect. Although my writing may sound happy and positive, in reality I struggle with being the exact opposite. Since my life is different from most of my peers, I feel like I'm somehow missing the mark because I'm not a dutiful housewife. Most nights I'm too tired when I get home from work to prepare a decent meal. Having company looks impossible to me because if I'm not working I just want to spend time at home and get caught up on wash and things around the house. As an introvert, being with people can be exhausting and I feel like I don't know how to relate to others. Somehow I can write things that would be hard for me to say, but talking about my life and feelings seems self-centered and I didn't think people would want to hear about it anyway. That's why it's been surprising to hear that others find it interesting!

On the other hand, I do feel like I'm blessed and my life is rich in so many ways. I want to be the person God wants me to be, and accept who I am. That's something I need to grow in. I appreciate your encouragement!

January 2, 2019

a day in the life of a pharmacy tech - Part II

Part II - the clean room

This installment will describe what we technicians do on a typical day when we are assigned to work in the clean room.

Within the pharmacy, there's a room called the anteroom, which is where you scrub up and gather supplies before entering the clean room. In part 3 I will describe the anteroom in more detail. The clean room is where we make sterile products, like IV antibiotics. Since these products go directly into a patient's vein, proper hand washing and garbing is extremely important, as well as keeping the clean room free of contaminants and particles. Everything that is brought into the clean room is wiped down with antibacterial wipes. Garbing has to be done in a certain order, going from dirty to clean. These are the steps we follow.
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1. Put on booties, then bouffant cap. Enter anteroom.
2. Put on face mask.
3. Step into bunny suit (lint-free coveralls) and pull it up to your waist.
4. Scrub hands, including fingernails, and arms up to elbows with surgical scrub.
5. After drying hands and arms, finish putting on bunny suit.
6. Enter clean room and use hand sanitizer, then don sterile gloves.
If you go back into the anteroom for something, you have to change your gloves before working in the clean room again. While compounding sterile products, we periodically spray our gloves with alcohol to keep them sanitized.

The products are made in a laminar air flow hood, which uses filters and air flow to keep out particles. It is important to not block air flow to the "critical point" where you inject or withdraw the drug. Syringes have to be handled in such a way that you do not touch the main part of the plunger, which could contaminate the product in the syringe. Learning how to hold the vials so that you are not blocking air flow while at the same time using the syringe correctly is difficult at first. All products wrapped in sterile packaging, like needles and syringes, need to be opened in the hood. If you take your syringe out of the hood, you can no longer use it because it is contaminated. It needs to be drilled into your mind to "stay in the hood."
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As for what kind of products we actually make, there are certain medications that we batch and always keep on hand. The tech working in the anteroom decides which medications need to be batched for the day. Many of the drugs come in powder form and we reconstitute them. They are then injected into an IV bag or syringe. Usually there is a pharmacist and a tech in the clean room. The pharmacist mostly watches the tech to make sure the correct sterile technique and right amount of drug is being used. This varies though depending on who your pharmacist is. Some pharmacists supervise and let the techs do the work, and others pitch in and help if there is a lot to get done. It is important to understand math and proportions when making IV medications. Here's an example: vancomycin powder is reconstituted with 100 mL of sterile water. The resulting concentration is 500 mg/10 mL. We are batching 1500 mg of vancomycin in 500 mL 0.9% sodium chloride. How many mL's do you inject into the 500 mL bag to result in 1500 mg of vancomycin? I'll let you tell me the answer. 😊 This is an actual drug and concentration that we do all the time.

Cleaning is another important part of working in the clean room. Before we start in the morning, we clean the hoods (we have a 4 ft. and a 6 ft. hood) using a 3 step process. It has to be done in a certain order because of the air flow - from back to front, and top to bottom. The process is repeated in the evening when we are done for the day. We also have to take out the trash and wipe down counters before we can exit and take off our garb. It gets hot wearing that suit, mask, cap, and gloves!

When I first started in the clean room I thought it was horrible. It's a small room with only a pass-through window looking into the anteroom. You have no way of knowing if it's a beautiful sunshiny day or cold, gray, and rainy. Drinks and phones of course are not allowed, and if you have to go to the bathroom or blow your nose, you have to go through the whole garbing and scrubbing process again. We are in there for hours at a time, mostly standing in one place, which can give you sore legs, feet, and back. Learning the sterile technique and how to manipulate a syringe and needle was so unnatural and awkward for me. After awhile, when I felt more comfortable and knew a little more what I was doing, I started liking it! There's no constantly ringing phones. The hoods make a calming droning sound and you can just kind of get in a zone and block everything out. At this point, I prefer the clean room over any other position! 

Sometimes crazy stuff happens and you have to do stat drips for someone who is coding, or a patient has an emergency surgery, etc. I have more stories to tell but I think this is long enough. Hopefully the details were not too monotonous!